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Each Gifted Moment

December 15, 2009

A Pastor friend of mine (who is also my boss), returned from a trip today and we had a few moments to catch up.  He asked me, “how are you?”

“I am great,” I replied. “Well, emotionally I am ridiculous, but otherwise great,” I redefined.

I explained to him my fears of letting go of my dreams to raise our baby boy.  Motherhood is a dream, but it is not the totality of my dreams.  The closer time comes to the little one’s arrival, the more anxious I become. “How will it all work out?” I wonder and wish I knew the plan.

“God give us the faith and grace we need for today, not for days down the road,” He said.  Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen (Heberews 11:1).  “Do you remember when you were in college and it seemed forever until you would graduate with a diploma?  Or how about when you were in grade school and the thought of 12 years of school seemed forever.  Yet, here you are; beyond that season and onto all God planned for this season of your life.  So too, you are entering a season that will not last forever and is special and unique.  Enjoy every moment.  Plan for the future, but realize that each moment is a gift. You can’t live in the future.  You can only live now.”

I just desire to be a part of bringing the nations before the throne of God (Rev. 7:9)  Like Paul the apostle, I know as believers we are set aside from our mother’s womb to live out His will for their lives (Galatians 1:15).  Psalm 139 so eloquently declars the majesty of His workmanship as He knit us together in our mother’s womb and each of our days were numbered when one of them did not yet exist.  I can trust that He will fulfill His plan for me as a mother and as a follower of Christ.

Another friend of mine reminded me of the poem of the divine tapestry.  How all we see are the messy threads on the backside.  The dark colors of pain and sorrow, mixed with the goodness of the gold and silver.  We do not know the picture He is designing with our lives, but we do know He is the master artist weaving His grace and power through our lives so others might see His glory and believe.

I do not know what this motherhood journey will entail.  I do not know how I will raise a godly man to serve and love the Lord. I do not know how God will lead me to live out His call on my life to be a voice for the nations.  Yet I do know His ways are higher than my ways; His thoughts higher than my thoughts (Is. 55:9); His dream larger than my dream;  His plan perfect in timing and direction.  So, what to do?  Be still and know that He is God.  He will be exalted among the nations.  He will be exalted among all peoples (Ps. 46:10)… and enjoy the moments He has gifted today.

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